I've stepped back from the edge a few times but usually those thoughts are my constant companion.

Sometimes if I make an abrupt change in what I'm doing
going outside from inside
turning on or off the radio
do dishes instead of sitting
I can stop going down the road my thoughts are taking me.

When the action is not on my "to do" list the results are better.
Unfortunately it never lasts for very long.

((((( debbie )))))

kebs