laying low today.
exhausted mentally. grief work= sadness, pain, triggers, and so many other things...... cleaned the house today. avoiding doing homework for T which is writing a letter to Baby J and to "friend".......each time i think of writing i get sick to my stomach, my head hurts, and tho we want to cry, hold back and hold back some more.

we know that continually distracting only prolongs the process......but it just is so da__ hard!!!!!