i am feeling super evil. like evil is i can feel. i have very high anxiety it has been in submission for a while but for the last3 weeks i don't know if i will actually hurt myself. i don't want to die. i don't want to kill anyone i just want to screw stuff up really bad. like blow somethign up. i am scared. what of i hurt mysaelf. i don't like pain. i feel it day in and day out tha ti don't want anymore. i feel like i could go watcxh some slut dance her way to a firey hell...cause i am not that stupid but why is the fact that she is the one exploiting herself and the fact thet she dooez n't care that she is nake d make me feel better becsue i don't want to do that to myself. is her lack of self repserct for hwer self make me an evil jerk.. i fweel like blowiong somthing up