it has always confused me why people say that "absence makes the heart grow fonder". the longer i don't see someone, the less i get the urge to continue seeing them, the less i miss our connection. it is nice to know that others relate in this way.

with pdoc it is different, but i think he is the only one. and that only happened after many years of seeing him. i still think about quitting (all the time!) but i think of it is a sad thing, not a neutral thing like it would be with so many other people i have relationships with.