No, o' course you're not the only one, hun. Perps themselves often have multiple victims. For instance I know of at least 5 other children that my main perp abused, and I know for sure that he abused more. Another one of my perps also abused my mother and aunt when they were children, as well as many of my cousins. Another perp abused my siblings and me together.

The thing is... abusing children isn't about the child. It's about the perp. THEY have a desire to have sexual contact with children. They know it's wrong. They know it's against the law. And they do it anyway, to any child they can manipulate into a) a situation with them alone b) not telling.

Another question to ask instead of "what is wrong with me" might be "What the h*** is wrong with THEM?"
What is it in their minds that makes them think it's okay to be sexual with a child? Can YOU imagine doing that? Could your husband?? If you knew a child now who had recently been sa'ed, would you ever think to ask them "What is wrong with you?" Why not?

All I can tell you with absolute certainty is: It ain't ever about the kid. It's about perps wanting to satisfy their own needs, and not giving a damn about anyone else in the process.