I know what you mean… my mother physically abused me before I was even two years old. Because of what she did I had to go and live with my godparents. They were both perverts, they had friends who were also perverts. I stayed in their home until I was nearly 5. When I was 12, a complete stranger managed to corner and grope me and then when I was 15 my step father molested me. 
I asked my therapist about it once, is there a target on me? Do I just look easy? She said it was mostly that I was in the wrong place with the wrong people… but having been abused made me more vulnerable to abuse. She says that was not my fault and that I am learning to be strong. I don’t believe I would be as easily coerced now but it has been a lot of hard work to get here and I am not done yet. 
I know it is hard when there are so many people in your life who had taken advantage of you but you have to learn to know that you were innocent. The abusers are guilty and perverts. You have already come so far. I am sure you will make it all the way to health. 
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dalila
Worry is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do but it doesn't get you anywhere.
-Erma Bombeck
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