I am just so emotionally drained right now. Drained and vulnerable. Things with my husband have been soooooo rough. My emotions are a rollercoaster. And he has been crying, begging me to give him another chance, telling me all the things that trigger emotions that I have been struggling with....

...And I just don't know if I'm up to going to group T where the focus is not on what's outside of the room. But rather, what's inside of the room. I don't know if I can be attentive and focused...

I took the day off from work today, so maybe I'll spend some time dealing with my grief and emotions (but who the heck wants to do that)....so that I can be better prepared during group. Who knows.

This is just too hard. It's too hard to be strong. I have to be strong for myself....for my daughter....and strong enough not to let my emotions run my decisions with my husband. It's just too damn hard.