ARRRRRGHHHHH!! Today has been SO frustrating!!!

Nick told me to go get a nap this morning because I was so grumpy and he's never seen me like it before. He laughed at me a lot and I just got really annoyed and said "It's not funny!!! It's REALLY not!! I hate being so grumpy and irritable!! It's horrible! " He said it was quite funny, but it really wasn't... I got frustrated at everything.

Sigh. There's so much I wanna write here, but I can't because of the people viewing it. I hate it when this happens! It drives me nuts! I'm so tired and weak today... I haven't eaten today because of all the crap that's been going on and just haven't felt well enough to eat anything. I've been invited by 2 people to go and stay with them for a few days, but I'm too scared because of my eating... Sigh. I've even told these people that and they've not said much about it, but I know that if I go there, they'll beg me to eat something and say "well you have to eat at some point".

I know that things'll be better if I go away from here for a few days, therefore I'll be more likely to eat because I normally don't eat when things go wrong... But that's the thing... I don't want to put on anymore weight. I don't want to be out of control anymore.

I hate this. I just want to cry.