Hi Knothead,

I hear you, and I remember when I was desperately needing help. It all seemed to slow, of course that was also connected with the anxiety I was experiencing inside, caused partly from the substances I was using to self medicate.

I'm thinking can you do something in the intrim to help yourself, can you attend an NA meeting?

Sorry if this all sounds tripe, but I have been where you are now.

Good luck.