Hey!
You know sometimes a change is good. You get a chance to start all over. Of course it will come with it's own challenges and it won't always be easy.

I wish I could give you some of my experience. I ran away, moved, avoided my problems and life in general when I was your age. I wanted everything to just be alright but it never was. Until I sat down and really thought about what I wanted my life to be like and started taking care of the problems and issues I had nothing really changed for me. No matter where I went I always ended up in the same place. Tired, alone, struggling and confused.

I finally realized I couldn't figure it all out on my own. There were issues in my life I wasn't able to figure out on my own. I had to ask for some help. Someone to sit down and ask me the hard questions and help me to figure out the answers.

It was then and only then, when I had dealt with my feelings and my life that I was able to really open myself up and make a difference. Make a good choice for myself. I still made and make mistakes. Life can still be really really hard but I am better able to deal with things because I made a foundation for myself. Not a home, not a family, not friends but a foundation within myself.

I know who I am. Who I can be. I know what I can and cannot achieve. I know when I am giving too much and when I am not giving enough. No matter what happens in my life. No matter what people say or how they treat me I can move on because no one can take away me, my dreams, my hopes or my beliefs.

You will grow alot over the next few years. You will experience alot and it will change you. The most important thing, no matter what life or people throw at you is to not become bitter or angry. Don't close off your heart or your mind.

I don't know if any of this helps. You will find your way, it will take some time but you will and asking for some guidance along the way can be very helpful.

Hugs
Heidu

The highest reward for a person's toil is not what they get for it, but what they become by it.
John Ruskin