Edgar, if you ask someone to step in to take your place, usually someone will. If that is what you wish, just ask and see what happens. People can get "stuck" being out when they don't want to be. It's easy to forget to ask for help from inside and of course it is good to ask for help here. I hope I have. If this doesn't sound right to you, please ignore it. You posses the wisdom to know what is right for you ... just listen.