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Originally Posted by knothead
I went to my first therapy session (the evaluation) this morning, after waiting 2 1/2 months for my appointment. I don't know why I even bothered, the T is shuffling me off somewhere else. I'm on my own again for two more weeks, then I'm supposed to be evaluated for substance abuse by an addiction T. Don't they realize I'm self-medicating to cope with everything? The T wasn't even concerned about my SI even though I admitted I was out of control. I knew they would do this -- I should have kept my Benadryl addiction to myself. Granted, 200 pills a week is extreme but it keeps me numb, they're trying to blame all my problems on this one substance even though I've always had problems. I can't even begin to get any kind of help from therapy until this other T evaluates my dependancy issues, then who knows where they'll send me next. I'm thinking about just forgetting the whole thing.
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(((KNOTHEAD)))
You know, this sounds very frustrating, but consider it this way----what better choice do you have? You can't go back, and if you continue in your current self-destructive cycle you are only hurting yourself further and the problems will still be there, eating you up inside. Everyday this continues it pushes you deeper into it, making it that much harder to get out. Problems don't solve themselves, and tend to get worse if untreated. This goes for any type of problem.
If you give up now, then you definitely won't get any help. If you go with the program, then you stand a good chance that this might really work for you. It's okay to be afraid--it's normal, but try not to let fear defeat you. You can do it--just be patient with yourself and go with the flow.
