Yeah, I am afraid of liking my T too much or getting attached to her. Because someday she will retire and I will have to get used to a new T! Trusting others is extremely difficult for me. I don't even want to think about my T dying, she is the only T who gave a damn about me really.

I have had some crappy experiences with Ts in the past. I never got any decent help because of this. I finally decided that my new baby doesn't need a mommy who is depressed for years at a time. Now that this T has paid enough attention to figure out what is wrong and wants to help me...I want to pull away. Because I don't want to get my hopes up that things might get better. Of course my diagnosis means I am permanently broken in the head...so things aren't getting any better no matter what! LOL