I'm sorry you are feeling bad
when i get upset I can feel one of the big cuts I did as if it was there - so I tell myself that if I can feel it I dont need to do it. SOmetimes that works.
I hope you stay safe - know that I am thinking of you and sending you healing thoughts P7
__________________
Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
)
When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet