I am in a full blown panic right now.

The boys mom just texted me, asking to hear "my version" of what happened. We are going to talk in a couple of hours.

My heart is in my throat. My stomach is in knots. I can hardly breathe. What the hell is going on with me????

I seemed to handle it better yesterday, but now that I am so triggered - I don't know how to handle this. I feel like it's not what happened that is causing all of this anxiety.

I need to keep a level head when I talk to her, stay objective and speak clearly about exactly what I saw, without any kind of judgement. But how can I do that when I am feeling like this???

I wish I could call my T and talk to him. I saw him last night at group when I was totally out of sorts, and he didn't seem to take an interest at all in how I was feeling. So, I feel like I can't even reach out to him right now. I have my individual T session with him tomorrow, but I am triggered NOW and in a panic NOW.