Yes, I am triggered now....I can't stop crying....I can't catch my breath...and I don't know why!!!! And even worse, I'm afraid to find out....

I don't want to call my T because I guess I feel like he doesn't care. I am just a client who is allotted his attention for 45 minutes each week because he gets paid. Other than that, I feel like I am nobody.

I also feel like calling him would make me feel weak and that I should be stronger than this.

I am resorting to ativan.....