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There is SO much in you post. Do I think you should bring ALL of this up to T? Absolutely, positively, yes.

Something at the end struck me...you talked about T talking about things in "clinical" terms. My T did that when the DID discussion started and wow, did it trigger me. I was hurt, angry, confused, you name it. It was like all of a sudden, this really human relationship had ended and a super clinical t/client relationship had taken it's place.

I can NOT ignore things like that. I will spiral and spiral. I need to talk to T about it. I think because some part of me knows that I am reading things wrong...but I need to be reassured, and T needs to know what my triggers are. That's a big part of healing, for me. Almost all of my healing has happened through the T relationship, and it's been through asking those scary questions (am I too dependent? do you want to get rid of me?) when they come up.

(((((((((((((((((((Sunny)))))))))))))))))) I'm so sorry your session was so hard. I hope you are able to find some peace.