Lizzy, I am EXACTLY the same way.

Right now I have no focus (and I desperately need it as I'm trying to complete a big job).

When I'm in hyper-focus, I go for days straight and accomplish tons, then crash and burn. I think I'd rather have the focus and exhaustion than this "I can't get anything done" mode.

On top of that, my pDoc last week decided to take me off Prozac and Wellbutrin for a month to see what my 'natural' state is these days. The Prozac I don't mind, because it was making me a zombie, but I'm really noticing the absence of Wellbutrin for my ADHD. :-(

I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow, and I'm going to see if she can help me convince my pDoc to give me back at least that med before next month. I don't know how I'm going to make it otherwise.

Why do people like us decide on self-employment? I think for me it's because I don't do well working in the real world either, but dang! This one isn't much better... :-(

Hugs to you...

MHH