I just returned from my therapist's office, where we discussed in detail the different parts of me. My therapist talked about parts that are "stuck in time" due to traumatic experiences. She also told me, after having saved several phone messages from me, that in my messages, she has heard at least 2 very different voices (e.g., she knew it was me but the sound of the voices was very different). She also talked about how I often misinterpret and misconstrue things she's said, and it leaves her a little confused and wondering "who heard what." She says she often gets mixed messages from me and that she thinks it is very important that we focus more in our work on understanding the different parts of me, what they feel and need, and what their "jobs" are. And, in time, trying to integrate them.

We also talked about how I exercise strict self-control so as to always appear normal and not let wounded or needy parts of me show to anyone in my real life and, as a consequence, most people who know me would never suspect I had parts.

My t has said that I appear to be about halfway across the continuum between a normal person and somebody with DID. However, lately, I've begun noticing (as I let up a bit on my self-control, or when i get triggered) that I sometimes think, feel, and behave very differently than the way my normal self is. Afterwards, I go back to my normal way of thinking and feeling, and I am very surprised or ashamed at how I behaved, wondering "Why did I say that?" or "How could I have felt that way?" The feeling I have when a different part takes over is that I'm aware that I'm behaving differently, but i can't seem to help it. At that moment, I feel 100% that way. But later, once I've returned to my normal mode of being, i just don't feel the way i did.

So here's my question:

Do you think it's possible for a person to have co-conscious DID and yet not lose time and be high-functioning enough and self-controlled enough to keep it completely hidden from others?