(((RACHIE))). I am sorry that you are going through this. I am sure you feel so alone and isolated in how you are feeling, but have you ever been tested for Post Partum Depression? A lot of women feel the same way and it could be Post Partum Depression, and it can even make you feel deprived of attention even after having a baby and even more alone. I hope things get better for you soon Rachie, and possibly get help from someone that Could give you a short break for a while to allow you some time to yourself. Take care. Soidhonia.