Ya know what? It's okay to be happy. I don't think working out and eating right is a bipolar indicator . Of course most normal people don't work out and eat right...so maybe it is .... just kidding.

It's okay to have things you want to do. For instance, I would like to rip out the ugly bushes alongside my house and replace them with bulbs. I believe normal people do this sort of thing. Now if I wanted to repave the driveway, mow the lawn, replant all the flowerbeds, and remove the trees in my lawn in one weekend, that might be manic.

If you are worried, try to remember your upswing pattern. When I get worried and anxious about EVERYTHING, I know it's hypomania time. If I act like I have had three cups of coffee when I know I haven't had any...it's a little bit of hypomania time. Apparently I appear really happy to others, but I don't feel happy really.

Do you have a T? Two weeks after my diagnosis I was crying that I thought everything I loved in life was a disease and had to be flushed down the toilet, and my life would be an empty boring waste of time. My T said if that turns out to be so, she will find me the toilet. She said she really doubts that she will have to do so. She will help me.