I'm not sure what's with me lately.

Feel sad.

Felt sad when I was with my youth group today. Felt ignored, felt like no one wanted to talk to me. I was quiet. Then, i couldnt take it anymore and just left the function i was at.

I got hugs on the way out the door. But still feel like I cant talk to people for the most part at college. I feel ignored, i have no idea how to start a conversation.

I have a disabiltiy that makes it so i cant speak verbally, so...when i'm sad i just sit there and listen to people.

And I've felt for a few months that I dont want to look at my books in my room. I LOVE my books...and I dont even want to look at them anymore . I've started taking some books out of my room tonight.

I feel so apathetic in school.

I WAS on sertraline but I went off of it a few months ago without Doctor approval.

What's wrong with me?

*sigh*

I'm not crying like i was a few months ago, like i'd burst into tears and not be able to control it. It's better now but...you know..

help me?