Some very painful memories have been coming back to me recently...and I'm afraid to tell my T about them. He feels that I've made such progress in being assertive with my husband, etc. I feel like he is so proud of me.

He knows that there are issues in my past that I have not yet been ready to deal with.

But lately, I've been so triggered by certain events, and it's bringing back memories that I have not had in 15+ years.

I have not admitted these things to ANYBODY in real life....and since I've been so out-of-it the last few days, I feel as though I need to disclose this info to T in order to get out of this funk that I'm in.....

Things like....

- Memories of possible SA when I was a very young child. I was not sure if this is real or not, but it's now becoming more real.

- Memories of inappropriate sexual acts that I initiated as a young child, which leads me further into believing that the memories of the SA were real.

- I used to cut when I was a teenager. I totally forgot about this until today. The cutting started after a SA experience with my old boss that I've already disclosed to T. I don't remember when I stopped cutting, but I remember how good it felt to inflict pain on myself.

It's so much easier to tell you all because you don't know me.

I have a decent career that I'm proud of....and have a beautiful nearly 8 year old daughter that is my world.

How do I disclose this info to my T without thinking that he's going to feel I'm some kind of nut who is incapable of being a successful career woman and mother.

I'm scared.