Your post makes perfect sense. I have been there myself in a way.
Usually when I get to where the ideas are just filling my head and making me anxious, I force myself to pick one or two things to work on at a time. That's it. No exceptions. Then I don't seem to progress to the overriding anxiety stage. It just fizzles out. It's not that easy to do though.
It seems like you have a good support system in place. I hope your T sessions help you out.
Quote:
Originally Posted by BNLsMOM
Amazonmom,
It's like I want to do all sorts of things...but I am worried that if I commit to them that I will end up depressed and just leave them all half done. It's usually when I start a million things that I get frustrated because I suddenly realize that I can't do them all. That makes me depressed. Maybe I am trying to stave off the depression by avoiding that trigger?
Here's what I am thinking...I am running a half marathon in October (must have been manic when I signed up for that one) so I want to train for that, I want to pull down all the wallpaper in my house and finish the redecorating, get the garden in, plant shrubs outside... I know that these are all normal things to do, but I feel like I have to hurry up and get them all done right away. I think that is the hypomanic part.
I don't know... I am so in my head all the time that when someone "gets in my way" or asks me to slow down I get very angry.
So right now, I am feeling good, but I worry about those things...
I don't even think my post is making sense right now.
I do have a T and I will be seeing him with my husband on Saturday and on my own Monday.
|
__________________
"Unipolar is boring! Go Bipolar!"
Amazonmom is not putting up with bad behavior any more.