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Originally Posted by BNLsMOM
Amazonmom,
It's like I want to do all sorts of things...but I am worried that if I commit to them that I will end up depressed and just leave them all half done. It's usually when I start a million things that I get frustrated because I suddenly realize that I can't do them all. That makes me depressed. Maybe I am trying to stave off the depression by avoiding that trigger?
Here's what I am thinking...I am running a half marathon in October (must have been manic when I signed up for that one) so I want to train for that, I want to pull down all the wallpaper in my house and finish the redecorating, get the garden in, plant shrubs outside... I know that these are all normal things to do, but I feel like I have to hurry up and get them all done right away. I think that is the hypomanic part.
I don't know... I am so in my head all the time that when someone "gets in my way" or asks me to slow down I get very angry.
So right now, I am feeling good, but I worry about those things...
I don't even think my post is making sense right now.
I do have a T and I will be seeing him with my husband on Saturday and on my own Monday.
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I think you have a legitimate concern. I find it all but impossible to tell the difference until it's blatantly obvious. But you said you have a husband and hopefully he can identify if your behaviour crosses that line. I'm basically saying that at least in my case, I'm not able to evaluate my own behaviour at all; I don't have anyone right now who can keep an eye on me, but when I did, it helped a lot.
With all that having been said, I would say to enjoy it while it lasts, just bearing in mind the possibility.