obiswife, hello and welcome...

you will survive and you will have peace
but first you have so much to work through...please be kind to yourself
it hasn't been that long of a time for you to begin to sort through everything

may I suggest you read through the different forums, perhaps one or more will help you take the steps necessary to make a new life for yourself.
if you have any problems, you can PM any of the moderators or ask in the forum.

PC is a very good place to find support and caring.
Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing, ok?
We Care

Catherine