he said he is being all "give, give, give" in our relationship and that there needs to be some reciprocality.

so, he is not going to help me challenge any cognitive distortions anymore, it's something i'll have to figure out myself. he gave me a list of common cognitive distortions and said to read through it and do whatever i wanted with it. take it or leave it, he didn't care - it was his job just to give them to me, not to see that i used the techniques.

this must be a world record for the shortest time taken to piss off a T (). but i figure that if someone can figure out in just 4 sessions that i'm only "take, take, take" then i really must be a bad person, because i have been trying my ****ing heart out for him to like me. imagine what he would think if i'd just gone in there those times and been my real self.

anyway. all in all it's just served as timely confirmation that i should stop wasting everyone's time and get out of therapy. i'd been considering this same proposition earlier this week, but had managed to convince myself that the "useless, stupid, selfish bad deli" thing might just have been a cognitive distortion in itself. but - nup - it seems i was right the first time around.

see pdoc tomorrow, so will terminate then. don't know what the procedure is for terminating with new-T, because he is going interstate tomorrow and won't be back until just before my session next week. i have his mobile, so maybe i'll just call and leave a voicemail. hopefully he'll get it early enough so that he can extend his stay if he'd like.