oy. my old T mentioned to me once that he sometimes gets intrusive thoughts about ****ing Jesus Christ on the cross.

i was like !!!! but the point is that everyone has intrusive thoughts to some extent, some of them we are ok with, and some of them we aren't. the more we panic about having them, the more they decide to attack us.

sometimes i get intrusive thoughts and i make myself feel better by thinking at least my old T is weirder than me. this is not meant in a derogatory way, because i respect him immensely, and i know he only told me for my benefit - to help me see i'm not an awful person because of these thoughts.