I am afraid that I am losing myself.

For years, I was just trying to survive, focusing on getting through each day with the turmoil of my marriage.

Now that I'm moving further away from the marriage and my husband is no longer such a big part of my life, I feel like I am discovering more of who I was before I married him. Some things are starting to make more sense...and I'm afraid of being that person again.

I'm probably not making any sense. I guess I just don't know who I am anymore. I said to myself recently that I was going to write a list of all the good things I feel about myself. My good traits, my accomplishments - so that when I'm down, I can look to that to regain perspective. But I haven't been able to bring myself to make that list yet. I can't seem to get there at the moment. I feel like I am sinking in quicksand and can't reach for the rope to pull myself out.