I'm just scared as h*** T is going to do this. T won't stop talking about it and now it's getting in my head that maybe he's right. But I can't afford to go. I don't have insurance and I sure as h*** don't have money to pay for it. Some of my alters are truely ganging up on me. They are wearing me down to the point I'm so tired and weak they'll be able to hurt the body and I won't be strong enough to stop them. T believes that they are angry and mad that we are doing a lot of healing and he thinks that maybe they fear that they might be forced to talk and let go of the pain. So their answer to the problem is to ban together to gain control and keep the secrets quiet at all cost. So me being totally honest here. I'm scared sh**less. I'm so extremely sad and lonely. Feel like I'm truely on the edge of a nervous breakdown. Just want to scream and cry for somebody to please help me. I hurt so bad. So I just cry one or two tears, cause I can't be weak. But this pain is just to much right now.