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I just cried for 15 minutes straight in school, and I’m extremely embarrassed. The teacher didn’t even look me at me or ask me what’s wrong, and I sit in the front of the class. I don’t know what my problem is. I wanted to start outright sobbing, and my face is extremely red. I’m a senior in high school. I should not be having these kinds of emotional problems. Some girl was mean to me, and rammed her desk into mine really hard. I was already upset with the situation because she misunderstood something that I said and took it very badly. I didn’t mean anything bad at all. She’s just the kind of person to pick fights. She wouldn’t listen to my explanation of what I really meant at all. She wouldn’t even look at me, she just kept telling me to shut up, and looking at the girl next to her and saying “Is she talking to me?” So when she hit my desk I started crying. A lot. Ridiculously. The embarrassment and the anger at her just made it worse, and I couldn’t stop. The misunderstanding was about seniors having kids. The teacher said that in 10 or 15 years our kids will be in high school. For that to be the case we’d have to have babies right now, or have 5 year olds already (so we would have conceived these 5 year olds at 13 years of age) So I said “I hope that the entire senior class won’t have kids in high school in ten years.” The girl behind me took that as a direct offense against the other girl who has a baby now. My statement had nothing to do with her. She’s 18 years old with a new born. Not 18 years old with a five-year-old. There is a huge difference. I really like the girl who has the kid. She’s nice, she has motherly like instincts, and it’s nice to see her with her baby and how much she obviously loves him. The girl harassing me wouldn’t even let me explain myself to the mother, and she thinks that I have a problem with her and her situation now. The worst thing is that I’m sure it hurt her feelings, and I would never want to do that to her. After I got out of class I went to the nurses’ office for several minutes to let my face become less red. I know that I can’t even try to talk to the girl who was sitting behind me, because she would just hit me. I don’t know if I should approach the girl who has the baby and try to explain myself, or not… I just feel so stupid and embarrassed and bad.
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