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Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions
I am afraid that I am losing myself.
For years, I was just trying to survive, focusing on getting through each day with the turmoil of my marriage.
Now that I'm moving further away from the marriage and my husband is no longer such a big part of my life, I feel like I am discovering more of who I was before I married him. Some things are starting to make more sense...and I'm afraid of being that person again.
I'm probably not making any sense. I guess I just don't know who I am anymore. I said to myself recently that I was going to write a list of all the good things I feel about myself. My good traits, my accomplishments - so that when I'm down, I can look to that to regain perspective. But I haven't been able to bring myself to make that list yet. I can't seem to get there at the moment. I feel like I am sinking in quicksand and can't reach for the rope to pull myself out.
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mixedup_emo!
You make perfect sense to me. What a great idea to make a list of your positive strengths and accomplishments. Make that list!! It's great that you are able to recognize that you do have positive traits and that you have accomplished things!!
Go with it!
I'm sure that your T is going to want to know that you are struggling. They can witness the success and struggles that you're under for themselves. I'd assume that your stress is showing, in one way or another. It would be great for you to share exactly how you're feeling with them, in the moment, to help you get through.
While the situation you find yourself in must be incredibly stressful and overwhelming, remind yourself that it's provided motivation to work through the feelings and memories that you've held inside for so long. Very best wishes to you, mu_e!
Shez