I am trying to comfort the littles but nothing seems to help them stop crying right now....

We went to T again today and it was really rough. She talked with some of my parts and talked with a new one. It really drained me and put extreme terror in my system. I had to sit in my car for quite a while until I was able to drive. The terror is still there but not quite a strong.....

I am not sure what to do to comfort my chaotic system. I have tried going for a walk and just sitting with them (just made me feel worse and I think the littles were even more scared)......

This new part says he is there to control me. To make me act and look normal and pretend that nothing is wrong. He is angry that I am not following his "orders" and doesn't care if he and/or I die. He says there is nothing more to life if he can't control me anymore. He hates my Ts and doesn't want to talk to either of them. I don't even know his name. He talked with one of my T today but didn't stick around very long.....

My Ts tell me that I am doing a great job of containing everybody, given all that has gone on. I told them in an email today that containment is better but is also getting more difficult.....

I feel completely out of control right now. I don't know what to do to contain these feelings of terror and also try to comfort the littles.