My T doesn't have a receptionist, and I pay him directly. After a really hard session a few months ago, my hands were shaking and I said "I don't know if I can write the check" and T said "oh, you can". I totally burst out laughing. It's like an ongoing joke we have now "I just have to get treehouse to the point where she can write that check by the end of the session". LOL It probably sounds awful, but it makes kind of a weird moment in therapy more fun. I'm actually chuckling writing about it, but I'm weird that way.

Early in therapy, I did feel REALLY WEIRD when I had to walk past him into his office. I practically slinked along the wall, eyes down, just scurrying by as quickly as I could. I've finally reached the point where I don't even think about it.

Lately, he'll tell me "go on in" and he'll go off to the bathroom or something. It's weird to be in his office alone. I'm scared of seeing something on his desk that I shouldn't (like another client's file) so I sit and stare at the walls. Sometimes I think maybe T is *too* comfortable with me!