I guess I didn't word it right. I am grateful she came over to help but it was just the thought that they didn't think that I could do it on my own that has my hackles up. I guess I think that they don't think that I can handle the little things in life like checking the oil in my car, keeping my apartment clean, buying nutritious food etc. They (meaning my dad) always asks me did you check the oil in your car, let me see your menus for the week, sending my mom over to inspect my apartment once a week etc. If any of those things aren't done to his standard I get yelled at. The wierd thing is I always have them done to the standard done of the person checking them. I do check the oil in my car once a week, my mom comes over on Fridays and there are usually small things that need to be done but I always know there are going to be because I have yet to please my mom. My menus are always done nutriously and have yet to be asked to change anything on them. So I don't know why I have to keep be being dogged on and treated like I don't know what I am doing. I feel like they don't trust that I can do things on my own. Yes in the past I have messed things up but I am doing much better with my life and it's like they don't see it or that they do see it and they want me to regress back to my old state so they can continue to control my life.
I am grateful mom came over to help me clean I don't have to get on my hands and knees to scrub my floor now. I just wish I would have been asked first.
Jan
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