Im 23yo and have had depression for 10years but usualy managebale. But, a few months ago i had what i beleive was my first panic attack, although at the time i thought i was going crazy. So now im dealing with anxiety as well. I have had to go through alot over the past few years and i think its finaly catching up with me. I hadnt taked meds in years but this got so bad i went to my doctor and am now on lexapro and xanax as needed, but they barely help. I lost my job, and just got custody of my 4yo son, but i feel hopeless and helpless. How will i take care of my son? myself ? i feel like im just going through the motions in life, and the anxiety is kicking my ***. Also ive read up on OCD and beleive i have this as well. ( intrusive thoughts, ect ect ] I really dont beleive i have to live like this, i keep saying i will change myself, or ill be better tomorrow, but its always the same infact sometimes i think im getting worse. Im also finding myself not wanting to go out and hang out with friends or do anything anymore. I feel so lost i just dont know what to do or how to get help ecspecialy since i have no more insurance and cant go back to my doctor. blahh