Please... ranting is healthy and a reason why this place exists. It's nice to have the freedom to get off your chest what you want without fear of being judged. It's a great thing! I think you're going through a very natural progression of coping with a diagnosis. Eventually you will start to see that Bipolar Disorder is an illness and does not define who you are. It's tough but you'll see it. Take care and I'm glad you write here for support!