((((((rainbow)))))

I understand the anguish you must be feeling about wanting to do something so badly (call her), yet for whatever reason, you cannot.

In my experience, it has been best to go with honesty. If you feel as though there is something that you need to tell her... then you should. Even if you think it might be inappropriate, therapy is fortunately a safe place where you can discuss these things. If you trust your T, then you need to trust in the fact that they will not reject you, but will help you through this difficult time.

Another thing you might do is find another way to express what you are keeping inside. Journal it, or express it somehow through music or art, or however you would like. It doesn't mean the question or thought will go away, but you might be able to put it on "hold" a little bit if you don't feel as though you can contact her inbetween your sessions. I'm also not sure how you (or your T) feel about email.. but that might be another option.

Anyhow, I hope that you're feeling better about this soon, and you're able to find a way to get what you're needing


Jacq