No, not really true. We have never discussed this. All I know is that on the very first day of therapy, 2.5 years ago, he told me he doesn't do longterm therapy, which he said was more than 3 years. We haven't mentioned this since, and I doubt he even knows when my first day with him was. He's not much of a recordkeeper. However, I would expect him to want to terminate when he felt the time is right, based on my mental health and strength. Maybe he is feeling I am ready. I don't know.

My most reassuring thought is that bringing up LI to me was somehow related to my rather desperate wail to him the week before of, "why are we evening doing this? why are we talking about this?" and he wants to provide something more efficacious than talk therapy. But if so, then why hasn't he suggested we do more EMDR? EMDR was not traumatizing for me at all. I liked it.

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For some of the other stuff--notes, diagnoses, etc....they sound like material to prepare for another T to have when/if you switch. Shorthand explanations.

That never occurred to me.

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IF not the end-date scenario I recall, are there other reasons that he thinks you might end things sooner rather than later? Once D is complete?

Maybe he thinks we might end soon because he thinks I am doing fine. (I am doing quite fine.) But that seems at odds with his suggestion that I do LI, because that seems to suggest he thinks I need to do more trauma work. On the other hand, LI is also used to integrate ego states, and maybe he thinks mine are a bit too "flapping in the wind" and need to be drawn closer. Maybe he does see the end of the D as the end of my therapy. But I asked him that once, and he said no, that he looked forward to exploring other areas with me. In a way, the D has held back my therapy because it's kept me fixated on this issue.

LOL, I keep writing variations on "maybe he thinks," "maybe he sees," "this suggests he thinks." There's only so far I can go with that and the next step is to talk to him.