You sound depressed to me, and also perfectly normal to feel so tired and overwhelmed having 3 year old triplets!!! I hope you make the phone call and ask for help. You need lots of help, some of it may be with depression - meds, therapy. Some may be very practical like getting help with the kids and housework and having time by yourself and time alone with your husband. Try and find all the resources you can to get all the different kinds of help you can. Don't be afraid to let family and friends know how you are feeling and asking them for some help also.