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Originally Posted by rainbow8
I sat by the phone for an hour, pressing the buttons and then stopping. My heart was beating too fast, and I just couldn't do it. I want to call her so badly, but I feel like I'm going to disappoint her. I'm obsessing about my feelings from the session, and I want to ask her a question that may be inappropriate. I also want to tell her something. It's just too hard, though. I am panicking too much when I pick up the phone.
But each day I don't call, I get more depressed. I feel like I'm going to explode! I'm sorry I'm posting so much about this. I'm sure most of you are thinking, "Why doesn't she just call already!?" I wish I could. Maybe tomorrow I will.
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Rainbow, Its so hard to want something so bad, unyet afraid of what the results might be. I think the only way to solve this is to "Just do it" as the Nike slogan goes", and each time you do manage to test out results, the more able you are to do it again. Any responsilbe mature adult would treat your phoning with compassion I would think.