(((((((((((Tmac)))))))))))

I think for some reason you are turning everything bad that has happened to you into personal flaws.

The way i see it is that you are a COURAGEOUS SURVIVOR who has had a lot of horrible, awful, unimaginable **** piled upon her for a long time.

just because horrible stuff keeps happening to you DOES NOT mean you, yourself are horrible.

Plz be safe. I care about you A LOT!!