I am struggling with it.

I am afraid of how my neighbors will feel about it....especially since they are a source of some turmoil in my life.

I am afraid of what the stepdad could do to me if he finds out that I made the call. He is a ticking timebomb...and he was the one who participated in the sexual activity with my husband towards me....and has other very scary issues going on (alcoholism, won't leave the house, severe anger issues)....

I would prefer to be anonymous, but I don't see how that could happen when I was the one who witnessed it. (Although another neighbor said she saw the straddling part....and it is being talked about in the neighborhood).....

My T is asking me to confirm to him when I've made the call and who I spoke with, for his records.....which makes it seem so documented that I am the one who made the call.

I responded to my T that I need to talk to him about this with him before I make that call.