Many people have warned me over the years about my husband....and his behavior has become more and more erratic. I've always worked towards finding ways to getting him back to a more stable place, which usually involved things that were hurtful to me.
Now that I am working on distancing myself from him, I won't help him through his patterns - which was enabling him, I know.
To hear a professional use the word "insane"....and tell me the things he felt.....and realizing all of what I've been through....I am terrified of what my husband could do.
I don't think he'd get a gun. I do think that he is very capable of acting impulsively and doing something harmful to me. And that makes me even more afraid for our daughter.
I don't know how to keep her safe without doing things that could possibly send him over the edge. I used to feel very confident that he would never do anything to hurt her. I am now having doubts - but I'm unsure if that's a gut feeling or just taking in what other people are saying.
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