~gentle hugs~ Going of meds without the Dr is very dangerous. Some of them you really need to be weened off so there are no long term side effects. Why did you stop taking them? BEcause they made you feel better? Thats their job and if so they were working. It's something that we all need to accept that some of the pills make us feel better and might need them for an extended time, maybe even forever!
Go back to your dr and start over...Feeling better with a pill is so much better than feeling awful without it.