Hello all,

I just found this web site.

I'll give a quick background. I'm a male, 36, married for 15 years, with a new baby. I have been employed at my current job for 10 years.

Here is my problem. I get/have incedible anxiety/depression when I had an argument with a co-worker. Even after we both apologized and went our own ways, I still think about the event and the person everyday, almost non-stop! All negative feelings, like what I would have said, or should have said....two weeks ago. I just can't let it go.

So now it eats at me constantly. It's like I feel like I'm in a bully situation. Like when I was a kid. I feel really out of sorts.

Here's the kicker. The same exact and I mean EXACT same feelings started when I was in my home owners association meeting and I got into an argument with a board member. The anxiety/depression feelings lasted almost 5 months. And it wasn't even really an argument, just some silly e-mails back and forth. Everything I do during this time I'm in my funk, has this undercurrent of feelings from the same event/person from all those many weeks ago.

I see a doctor and he put me on Luvox, which might as well be sugar pills, because I notice no effect when in the anxiety/depression/can't stop thinking about it phase. So I have been on it for a year now.

When this latest event happened, my doctor was out of town and I saw his partner. He put me on Ativan. That seems to work when in panic mode, but it's the current of those thoughts will not go away. It is really effecting my life.

Also, where I work, I have to keep this all in total secrecy because of the stigma. Nobody knows. Just my wife. I feel all alone with this.