I can interact with all of my alters, and have co-conciousness with one of my child alters, (out of neccesity, to care for him as he throws tantrums nearly constantly)

But, i cannot control when I "switch" or get triggered to switch, and cannot really control when "I" (Edgar, host) come back.

Its very irritating, got me in trouble today actually.

I wish people didnt think iwas just playing to be dramatic, or something, because I DONT WANT attention. Thats the reason I dissociated in the first place. Dont let anyone know about my abuse, so i wont get hurt when Mommy or Daddy finds out someone found out... you know?

Im 20 years old, and I just want to be an adult. I just want to be normal...blarrgh...

-Edgar