Chaotic,

You made some insightful comments. I don't think one forgets secure attachments. And I agree, it is the mot hopeful of scenarios because it proves that therapy IS healing. I think this is actually a huge step for me--a real turning point in my therapy. I am so very grateful and hopeful right now--but most of all relieved to know that all the hard work of the past 2 and a half years was worth it! I really and truly felt joy in session yesterday and I think T did too. We must have looked like two nuts grinning at each other!!!!! Victory! Now I can get down to some serious healing of trauma because of the secure attachment.

And yes, I feel different.