Thank you all for your support. Like today ... I'm just so frazzled and on edge. But I am also exhausted ... and all I've done today is work out (my usual Mon, Wed and Fri routine) and set in my beautician's chair for 3 hours. And right now I feel like I could sleep for hours. It's ridiculous! I hate being this aggravated and tense all the time.

To make matters worse ... my bf, while supportive made the worst comment I think he could have made this morning. He said "I wonder if it's just that you have anger problems and nothing more. There may not be anything wrong with you at all other than anger issues and you just don't know how to cope and are just a mean ***** when angry". WTH kind of crap is that ... coming from someone who couldn't even complete a simple task like washing the dishes before Adderall XR????? I'm so angry ...

Anyway ... I agree I need something now to take the edge off. But the doctor I am seeing is a psychologist (because I don't want to be over medicated by a psychiatrist) ... then after a diagnosis I will go to my trusted doctor for meds.

Do you all think I should try to get my doc to give me something now to relieve some of this tension? I'm really tempted to ... I just don't want to get on something that may contradict my treatment plan if I am bipolar ... you know.