My T called and left a message because I wasn't home. I can call her in an hour. I'm all worn out now from seeing my internist for a physical. It was almost as good as therapy; he answered all my questions and saw me for almost 2 hours! He said he could give me an anti-depressant but it would probably make me gain weight. I just lost almost 20 pounds and am very happy about that. I'm prediabetic, so I don't want to gain it back. I also know it's better to have a pdoc prescribe meds than an internist.

I'm sort of distracted from my situation with my T because of seeing my internist. Isn't that weird?

Jacq: Thanks so much for responding. I wish my T would allow me to email, but she doesn't. She told me she doesn't use email that much, and it's not the best way to reach her. She also thinks I would abuse it by writing too much, and I have to agree with her. I have written poetry to get my feelings out, so your advice is on target for me.

Bether: That's just how I feel. I have a NEED to contact her and tell her how I feel. Even if it kills me, lol. Thank you! I AM finally giving myself permission to call.

Mouse: I think your advice to "just do it" DID it! Thanks.
Brian: Same goes for you. I called.

Tree: Actually the worst thing is that I still feel frustrated after I talk to her. But it can't be worse than the way I feel now. Thanks for all the hugs!

ktgirl: Of course you could do it too! s back to you!

peaches: yeah, FROZEN is a good wword for it. The time just goes by and I sit there. Sigh. I'm glad you understand but I wish neither of us had to go through this.

I will call her, I think, in half an hour. Got to get my notes or I will go blank. But I keep changing my mind about what I want to say. I've never been a very decisive person.